I've recently hit a wall  in my decision to purchase a new computer.  First wall is the fact that the one I want is currently not in stock, a problem that can be solved with a a little patience.   My second wall is letting go of the money.  Granted I have rightfully earned it and have greatly anticipated the day I would have enough to get a new computer.  A computer that I need!  However, letting go of the money is proving to be hard considering my past year and the lack of of money when I need it most.  Maybe this reluctance to purchase is a sign that I'm needing to hold onto this money for a greater good or need?  All to say it kind of has me stressed out.  Maybe time will tell.
In conjunction with my buying problem I recently had someone mention something to me that was . . . well  it went down like this.  Last week I was teaching at two different workshops held by my old bosses at Jostens.  They are awesome ladies and I love being able to help them out and teach.  It was one night during this week that I found myself, as always, the youngest of a group of adults enjoying a few drinks and some "adult" conversation.  It was  at this moment that one of the ladies I used to work for made a comment out of the blue..  She started by saying how much she appreciated me taking off of work to help her out and that she just wanted me to know that I seemed different to her.  That I was more mature and a much different person then when she first met me straight out of college.  She then asked me if I felt different or if I recognized the changes in myself.  At which point, I quickly started running the last two years through my mind to come up with an answer or some explanation that  would explain my changes.  I had nothing!  So with a confused look I told her thanks and changed the subject.  That was last Wednesday night and it still plagues me.  Have I changed?  In what ways?  What has caused it?  Is it good change?  What can I do to make more good changes?  Too many questions.  Don't worry God and I are currently struggling with this .  Well more like I"m struggling to get answers and He is struggling to give them to me in a way that I don't keep missing the answers and asking the same questions over and over.   Change is a word I've never been afraid of except when change has occurred and that others notice and I either didn't notice or didn't even intend to occur.      
Hmmm. . . I'll keep you posted.